Israeli is not a curse. Thoughts before sleeping.
17 years a man has been in power - 17 years is too long for anyone to be in power. Something that has been bothering me while I looking deeper - as someone who avoided politics at all costs is why we are so dependent on him? How come people allow themselves to behave like they are saviors? How come people let themselves to use religion - From both sides! as an excuse to overlook the damage that has been circling around our soil for so long.
I can't blame the Muslims for sticking with each other - They have I assume the same faith with different religion waves. There are principles that unite them. What are these? I am not sure. I spoke with a friend from Algeria, he is so kind - very loving and friendly. Different from many people who sees my flag or hear my French wanna be accent and say disgraceful words about me - even without knowing me: My traumas, my opinions, my feelings. Why my feelings are less then others? Why my feelings are not important as others? I guess I should look at to whom I try convey. Someone who is willing to listen. He was willing to listen. I had my prejudice and I did think he tried to sell on something that wasn't there. For long I saw the Islam as something violent. a faith that suppresses woman and allows people to kill for their 72 virgins. At my religious school they told us how Muslims would lure Jewish girls just to make them pregnant and abuse them. I hated them for this. I hated them because that's all what I knew about them.
We as human beings don't like to include people who are different from us from what I observed, in Israel it can be common when you let yourself talk to people privately. It makes sense to me. I don't usually like someone who I just can't get. I just don't understand thinking to myself "How the hell he allows himself to believe this way?" I have noticed that we will mention our differences rather then the things that unite us.
As a Jew - I also can't accept the fact that because I have been born for a Jewish mother I am at the fault for existing, for wanting to live in a country I feel safe just speaking my language and say Baruch Hashem- Even if I don't even known what is a faith anymore. When I see people hold the name of god so freely, so easily without thinking or perhaps ignoring purposely the values that the Torah or other religious principles are at priorities. The value of human-life, and respect of having different opinions.
So I spoke with my Algerian person, he told me a different story. He told me how he view the religion from a peaceful way, In none condescending and no guilt tripping victimizing behavior which I would not had expected at first. In all fairness - he was fair. That made my eyebrow to rise. It's interesting how healing it can be - to stand with your own opinions without diminishing the other person's pain. We spoke right after what happened in October 7th. I was very triggered and felt the sense of revenge but I am happy I allowed myself to listen as well. There are good people too...in both sides.
I wonder what if we stopped to hold our truth as a sword to cut the person before us?
In his 17 years I have seen people in my country are divided between left and right - where is the middle? Why it seems that we became extreme from either side? I love my people, I love the people who accept me. I love the people who don't wish for my death since it can be an opportunity to make another friend! Who does not like to make another friend? Who really gains from this division? From what I have observed...Divide and conquer is the oldest tactic in the book and our PM excels it. Politics seems to be thriving on dividing the people from the important matters. But how can people focus on important matters when you give them sense of scarcity? We must survive. Yes, we must survive. I want to survive - BUT I WANT TO LIVE TOO!
Something interesting that I can tell from Xena is this - the cycle of hatred will repeat itself until we choose love. Until we choose understanding. But how can we trust? How can someone trust when they have been traumatized or thought to hate the different? I don't feel safe knowing that I can plan my life 5 years ahead and then some bullshit political asshole who can't let go of his sit - who can't let go of his mistakes - and while he does his mistakes he brings us down with him, why? because "I can fix it! I have done it then I need to fix it! nobody can do it but me!". When it comes to taking accountability it should be in appropriate time. Not when you need to "prove" people that you should be electable. I feel like people forgot what is honor, what is respect - especially giving it to another person. I can't trust right now our neighbors and that's ok, I can't trust the world right now, and that's ok. It does not mean it's not saddening me that kids will remember fear and anxiety instead of concert and shows.
I believe in advancing the human race. I believe in using our power as united force to better ourselves. I just don't understand how we ever be able to apply it?