It is easy to believe in something you were thought to believe
My depression is going hard and steady and no light seems to show up anytime soon, I need like a cave man learn to ignite my own fire. Like a fucking cave man I need to deal with things by myself as I try my best not to lose hope but I already did, I try with no reason, even now - as I am looking at this current job and my current life I think to myself 'Perhaps it's all a mistake to begin with' life will lead you some where till the dead-end.
My brother ended up lying to me yet again. My family are bunch of losers. I can't deal with it.
I just wonder to myself if I had a fucking one chance for some support - if I had a real one person to rely on how things were different. But it is a wishful thinking. I am the one who people usually rely on. I learned to please and to be emotional baggage carrier I don't give a shit anymore. No wonder I don't really have friends.