I love weekends gaming
Shame I have my own commitments which I was not signing up to. Taking care of people which supposed to care take me, it is what it is.
I like playing games, the good single player games when you just let yourself go with the flow of the story. I also begun to like playing games that you can join a friend of yours and finish mission, just the two of you. Split fiction is a great game, I really love how the visuals are, very colorful and it's not like in many games that you see just 1 or two places and call it a day. The visuals are just stunning. I really like also making my friend to die on purpose when he is over controlling telling me how to play. 'nope sir, one ticket to spawn point for you'. I played the same company's game 'it takes two' - which really made me feel like I am playing inside a kid's room and enjoying the playfulness that seems as if people forgot it's a huge part of enjoying life. I forgot these parts. Everything seems serous in Israel. Politics, not enough money, stress, next war, Arabs hating us, nuclear bomb that might hover on top of our head, purple man who needs to let go long ago and more. Life can be so much stressing. So, it's nice to sit with cup of warm drink and forget about stuff and let myself enjoy moments I never had in childhood and relive them now.
I want to play so many games... One of the games I really enjoy to play is Kingdom come deliverance. The first game just hit right in the feels. I liked also courting Theresa and building my bank account knowing that there can be reward for patience and time that I put a hard work into it.
In life it does not always feels like this - hell! it does not feel like this at all. If you ask me what I think of life at the moment? Personally of mine - It's not worth forcing and focusing and doing things in hope that things will go better. I just don't have power to think of it.
Was born poor, gonna stay poor as simple as that like many others. So I just try to avoid watching youtube when it comes to house tours and vacations in Japan which I always dreamed to do. Instead, I am taking vacation in fantasy world, or historical world. Being in the shoes of someone I don't actually despite. Someone I wish for them to just get their peace. People I heard saying that gamifying life is making life better - what if...The type of game I am playing is Celeste? which I need to die 1000 times just to get to level 3? Looking for these strawberries as I try to keep calm? What if I fantasizing I am in one genre of game but in actuality I am in the type of game that I am not feeling I have a choice to stop it in the middle - take league of legends. League of legends is a game I spend over 7 years usually on arams and then tried ranked. I would get to gold 1 with Diana since she is best character in my opinion but till I had the guts to try ranked I tried playing normal and used so many different heroes/champions just to have the excuse 'Never mastered them so it does not matter if I fail'. I would had taken ranked so seriously - my friends back then would and I went with them. What for? It stole my time, more like I wasted my time on it. Trying to prove something to whom? I am so happy I am trying to focus on my peace more. I can't playing stressful games any more when it comes to playing with others. It's more about finding my chill. I rather to have one or two friends which are totally chill and we can have a chat about things other then look at this 45 skin.
So yeah, right now playing split fiction makes me think of story writing, which I used to write once in a while, some fanfictions of league of legends and even just for myself. I wonder, what exactly makes a game a good game when it comes to story telling? Hollow Knight - which is a different type of game that I played really captured me. I hated that I gotten lost till I got the map, but then - after listening to the soundtrack and finding secrets and new passages...I have realized that some essence never left me of myself. My explorer side. No, we are not going to Dora here, but still...I enjoy the fact I am not stopping myself even though I rather to.