I don't want to wake up tomorrow to work
I just don't want to wake up at all but I must because I don't feel like I have any choice, because obviously I need to sustain myself... In the end when I am thinking of my friendships and about the transactional nature of the people around me, I understand that I waste too much energy on people. They are never satisfied and always in a way complain. These people show up when their marriage and their relationships are fucked up. At age 27 I thought my life would be different, apparently I was mistaken, BIG TIME. I feel so pathetic that I am in a situation in my life that I rely on people that I should not rely but rather support, it hurts my self respect. At the moment I am on a call with my girlfriend which lives far from me, she is a good person and she is going through so much. Her mindset is great and I love it about her, I just don't seem to share this mindset for the long run. I slept most of the day. I just want to sleep or to just disappear a bit from everyone. To not feel trapped.