Caboom and new work
It's interesting to see how things change from one side to another. You know, living in this country at times feels like I am living in a story. I am not sure if I am a big fan of this story but it's still a story worth reading, not sure of living, but reading is a good verb to use in this aspect.
From what I understood the Americans went CABOOM on Iran's nuclear sites, I selfishly thinking of my new job I am starting today. I have been waiting for this opportunity for some time and let me tell you this, I'm pretty much nervous but it's fine, I have many reasons to be nervous. I have finished a lovely certification I worked on it for several months - which for me is a miracle I passed it. I am happy about it. Anyways, Caboom and all that - what is now? I guess I am wondering about next steps of this region and I am not very about this idea. I hate the war in any way, it's too long. Way too long. When I am thinking of Jewish families who escaped countries and came to Israel in hopes for peace, escaping wars hoping for a better future and they ended up living in a country which seems in tension and at war constantly, makes me understand that war never changes - besides places.
I like the fact that I can freely do some stuff that woman or girls in my age can't, although I never saw it as something good to have other people not having something that I have. It's just a reminder for me how lucky I am.
I feel icky for the fact in the upcoming 2 years or so I have to wake up early just to have a footing in the industry I am desiring to thrive. I suppose that is my little sacrifice or in other words - my investment.
So yeah, Wars and all making me thinking of "hey you know what? perhaps life is short, nobody gives a shit if you will die as part of the 2025 statistics. Be more bolder, be less apologetic."
Less apologetic about what? I just wonder to myself...I suppose being less apologetic of taking space, of owning an identity different from others and of not agreeing with others when it comes to political views - respectfully of course.
I hope everything will be alright. I hope things will turn better... I hope my country and Iran can heal from this. I hope we can use religion guidelines in pulling people closer to us rather then alienate them.
an update 1:30 hour later: Yeah so I am heading back home, things don't look so bright. I was in the bus and there were so many alarms and fallings to be honest I ended up just smiling and calming down a girl next to me and another occasion a little girl too. I am happy I am alive and for now safe. I am happy my family are still alive. I love them, I don't want anything to happen to them. Regarding the job - I told them I insist on signing the contract and just finish up things and head home. I didn't drive 2 hours here for nothing.
I do think that hard times ahead of us. I will be honest - I am not sure diplomacy will able to solve what happening right now... Unless there will be a miracle. It reminds me of fragma song 'I need a miracle' which is playing in my head at the moment.
The sky is gray.